Triggers, CPTSD, nervous system realizations, and the patterns I couldn’t see until I became healthy Part 1 of my healing was silence. Not the cold kind of silence—more like solitude. Space. Safety. Part 2 was the mindset shift that changed everything: There are only two states in this world—healthy and unhealthy. That applies to physicalContinue reading “Part 3: Trauma & Awareness”
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Silence & Solitude — Part II
The Clarity It Brings After healing, silence and solitude stop being something you enter — and start becoming something you live from. The noise doesn’t disappear overnight. What changes is how your body responds to it. I started noticing clarity first in my reactions. Things that once sent me into panic, over-explaining, or shutdown no longer had theContinue reading “Silence & Solitude — Part II”
Healthy Comes Before Healing
A Sunday Reflection For a long time, I believed healing meant I had to be “fixed” before I could move forward—before a new relationship, a new job, or a new chapter of life. But healing doesn’t start there. Healing begins with becoming healthy. When you are unhealthy—mentally, emotionally, or spiritually—you don’t heal. You stay stuck.Continue reading “Healthy Comes Before Healing”
If you’re in a place so dark…you don’t believe you will ever heal…
I was there once too in survival mode 🩹 and where i discovered that stepping out of survival mode, was my journey to healing ❤️‍🩹 Healing from trauma was never something I believed I could do. I thought trauma—complex PTSD, triggers, painful memories—was so deeply embedded in my nervous system that healing wasn’t possible. IContinue reading “If you’re in a place so dark…you don’t believe you will ever heal…”
Silence & Solitude
After Healing Silence and solitude after healing are very different than the silence that comes before it. This kind of solitude didn’t arrive because I collapsed or gave up. It came after healing — when I slowly stepped back into the world with new awareness, healthy boundaries, and a nervous system that was no longerContinue reading “Silence & Solitude”
From Healing Layers to Silence & Solitude
There comes a point in healing where you stop digging. Not because there’s nothing left to uncover, but because you’ve uncovered enough to finally rest. Healing helped me understand what happened, why it shaped me, and how I survived it. Silence and solitude came after—not as isolation, but as integration. As space to let everythingContinue reading “From Healing Layers to Silence & Solitude”
Healing Layers — Part Four
From Survival to Living When I was in survival mode, I don’t know that I consciously thought about it this way at the time. But looking back, survival looked like constant planning, rigid structure, and never truly resting. Everything had to be done by a certain time—usually by Sunday evening—so I could finally “relax.” SaturdaysContinue reading “Healing Layers — Part Four”
Healing Layers – Part 3: Waiting, Boundaries & Integration
Integration was the part of healing I didn’t expect. After the unraveling… after the awareness… after the realization that so much of my life had been lived in survival… There came a quiet. At first, it felt unfamiliar — almost unsettling — because for so long my body had only known chaos, anxiety, and constantContinue reading “Healing Layers – Part 3: Waiting, Boundaries & Integration”
Healing layers part 2:Â
Survival vs Healing: The Difference Changed My Whole Life Healing isn’t linear, and this reflection comes from a real moment in my journey. I share it as lived experience—honest, unfiltered, and still unfolding. One of the biggest things I’ve learned this past year is the difference between surviving and healing. It wasn’t obvious to meContinue reading “Healing layers part 2: “
🌿 HEALING LAYERS – PART 1Â
Where My Healing Truly Began: January 2024 Healing isn’t linear, and this reflection comes from a real moment in my journey. I share it as lived experience—honest, unfiltered, and still unfolding. January 2024 was the moment everything inside me began to overflow. What I thought was a mental spiral was actually my nervous system reachingContinue reading “🌿 HEALING LAYERS – PART 1 “